14 months

I can hardly believe that 14 months have gone by since we held Timothy. I'm amazed at how fast time goes by sometimes. We celebrated by going to visit him. I love that we are always filled with joy when we go to Timothy's park. Our children are always excited. They laugh and play. Don't get me wrong. The joy that we feel is bittersweet but I am glad that we don't have to be sad every time we think about Timothy or when we visit him. We believe that his life was a blessing and enjoy celebrating it! (Even though it isn't always easy to do)

One of the things that cracks me up is that they love to give him their toys but like any other brother they also love to take them back. (Almost) every time we go to visit and love on him our children bring gifts and when they arrive they are very excited to take back the presents from last time. It reminds me of the normal sibling rivalry...

"It's mine!"

"No, it's mine...give it back"

"You gave it to me"

"Only to borrow...I want it back now."

"Mommy!"

I know that is all in my head but it always brings me a little smile.

Yesterday was also Malya's first visit with us since she was born. It was really nice to have all our kids in the picture together. (We moved the stuffed animals for the pictures, but I promise we put them back before we left!)

just a quick update

Hello friends! I'm sure that many of you have noticed that I haven't been writing very often lately. I'm sorry.

Mayla is 6 weeks old now and she is doing great. She has even had her first smiles! She does keep me busy though. She loves to be in my arms just about every second of the day so most of the time she is snuggled inside our best friend Moby. We have become quite the three some...Moby, Mayla and Me. In fact Moby has almost become part of our family, "Don't forget Moby mom.", "She want's Moby mom.", "WOW mom, Mayla really likes Moby doesn't she?".

As much as I really want to keep you all up to date on Mayla and share every second of our rainbow, I really set this site up for Timothy. So I think that I'm going to try to keep this site for Timothy. I plan to come here when I need to talk about him, think about him, remember my time with him, and mourn for him.

My posts here may be infrequent for a little while as I'm learning who I am right now and where I'm going. But rest assured, I will keep posting and keep updating. And I will continue to read all your wonderful blogs and journeys that have brought me so much support over the last couple of years. God has brought each one of you into my life and I'm thankful.