Saturday, February 28, 2009

Leap year

February 29 will not happen again for another 3 years, but every time we skip it, and every time we celebrate it I will have a vivid memory. A memory of me sitting on my couch and looking at my caller ID, answering the phone, and feeling like my heart has just stopped.

If you have never heard the term FISH, you are blessed. If you have never received the results from the FISH test, you are blessed. If you have ever taken the call, received the results, heard the words... full Trisomy 18, you will remember that moment for the rest of your life.

Friday, February 27, 2009

Cuddle Time!

I'm home! After spending a very uneventful week in Hawaii it feels wonderful to cuddle with my husband and hold my children. Life has returned to normal very quickly and I am back to making lunches, being the referee for little fights, and putting kids to bed. I am loving all the little things that make me a mommy.

I can't wait to share more pictures. Hopefully I will get them uploaded soon. Right now I just want to cuddle with Kevin!

Thanks for your well wishes and prayers. It was difficult to go so far away from my family but I am thankful that I was able to enjoy some time away.

Saturday, February 21, 2009


Just a couple pictures of paradise...

I am having a good time visiting with my family and relaxing by the pool and ocean.  I will post more pictures soon.

Tuesday, February 17, 2009

Following Hawaii???

I am getting a plane tomorrow morning and going to Hawaii...all by myself. I am so nervous! I have never left my children or husband like this before. It is totally out of character for me.

My mom, dad and sister have been planning this trip for the last year. My brother and sister-in -law jumped on board about 6 months ago. They have been asking, begging, and pleading with me to join them forever! I really wanted to join them but I couldn't bring myself to leave my family behind.

About 2 weeks ago I began to feel God talking to me...asking me to trust him. I began to feel like he was asking me to accept a gift from him. A gift of relaxation, reflection, and a time to recover. I have never had any time to myself to recover. Every day since I came home from the hospital I have been responsible for 3 young children. I couldn't spend a day in bed or in tears.

A week and a half ago I took the leap of faith and booked the trip. We have wonderful friends watching our little ones during the day while Kevin works and they are going to have great time. Kevin is excited to have some extra daddy time while I am gone. He has been extremely supportive for me. When I start to feel scared he puts his arms around me and tells me how good this is going to be.

So, I'm off to enjoy a little sunshine for an entire week!

Wednesday, February 4, 2009


I have been enjoying the last couple of evenings with my husband!! We put the kido's to bed and spend time together laughing and giggling. It has been a long time since I felt the desire to just laugh with him. I couldn't be more thrilled to feel like we are getting back to normal. YEA!!!!