Saturday, November 29, 2008

Learning to trust again

I'm trying to learn how to trust God again. I wish that I knew that God has taken one child away from me and he will not take another away. Since I know that He never made me that promise I find myself in a constant state of fear. I don't know how to place my family in His hands without that fear. I desperately want to trust God and feel surrounded by his love and protection. However, I know that he never promised that I wouldn't feel pain and sorrow. I find myself fighting with God. Telling him that I have given enough and begging him not to take any more.

I guess that is why I am trying to learn to trust God again, and give him everything that I have.


The Earnhardt Family said...

That is completely understandable! Something my human mind can't fathom (being able to trust again) ...but at the same time knowing that God is infinitely more amazing (can do and be anything we need) and ...I don't know..."worth the effort"... Praying God will give you the peace and trust that you need.

Anonymous said...

I will be praying that God will give you the strength you need to release your fears and grasp Him tightly instead. That He will gather you in His lap and hold you close so you can begin to trust again. His power is made perfect in our weakness...2Cor12:9. He will always be there for you.
hugs-katy c.

Wagner's said...

Jen- bless you for being so honest about your feelings. I can't even imagine how hard this must be, but will be praying for you to come to that peaceful place of trust with Him that you crave.