Thursday, July 2, 2009

It's coming...

I can hardly believe that it is almost time for Timothy's first birthday.

In just a couple of weeks we will have a 1 year old in heaven. There are moments that it feels like hours ago he was in my arms and times that it seems like years have gone by.

I have tried really hard not to focus on all of the things that I have missed with him. Instead I have tried to focus on all of the little and big blessings that he has given me. But as his birthday approaches it is hard to keep focus.

I miss him so much.


8 comments:

The Puyallup Earnhardts said...

I will stay unfocused with you for tonight and take time to really miss him too. Not like his mommy, but like her good friend.

Jessica said...

I will be thinking of you during this time. I want you to know that I found your blog when I was contemplating decisions about my daughter who we found has a partial Trisomy 18 at our 20week ultrasound. You story and the way you wrote about your sweet Timothy helped me find the courage to carry my baby to term. She is still with us now - 4 weeks on Monday. We will think of Timothy as we celebrate our time with our sweet Eva. Thank you for sharing your story, your heart, and your Timothy with us.

Happy Birthday Timothy!

Mrs. Mother said...

Big hugs to you. We are approaching the one year anniversary of Jenna's stillbirth, so I know what you are going through. We will make it through somehow.

The Earnhardt Family said...

Your emotions have got to be worn out by now...my heart sure aches for you. Was praying for you A LOT last night (and hadn't even read this blog yet actually). May God help you thru this and all that's to come.

Anonymous said...

I was just thinking about Timothy the other day. I actually think about him everyday because i check your blog once a day. I am sorry for your pain and rejoice with you in your happiness. Don't ever feel guilty for feeling sad or even mad....it's okay. Looking forward to meeting mocha :)
Blessings,
Annette

Trennia said...

I was blog hopping and found your site I'm sorry for your loss.

Aubs said...
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Aubs said...

I have experienced pregnancy loss, not infant loss and I can't even begin to imagine your pain. My heart was broken 3 times, I can't fathom what your feelings are. God bless