Dreams

While I slept last night I saw pictures of Timothy's precious face and heard his cute little squeeks. I could almost feel him. Durring the night my milk came in and I woke up with the urge to nurse him. My beauitful dream became a quick and real nightmare...

I sat in the shower, unable to cope with my emotion. Kevin came and sat quietly with me until the water ran cold.

Memorial Service

Please join us in celebrating Timothy's life on Saturday, August 2nd at 11:00am. Memorial Service to be held at:

Faith Baptist Church
25636 - 140th Ave SE
Kent, Washington 98042
(253) 631-0990

A private burial will be held on Friday, August 1st at 11:00 am.

* In lieu of flowers, donations may be sent to:

Timothy James Currey Memorial Fund
BECU Account #358-137-2279

or

Make-a-Wish Foundation
Local Chapter Web site: www.northwestwishes.org
811 First Avenue, Suite 520
Seattle, WA 98104
Phone: (206) 623-5300

With Deepest Appreciation

The Currey's have been overwhelmed and blessed by the outpour of encouraging words and faithful prayers. They have asked that I write on their behalf to express their deepest appreciation for your support during this time. In time they will be ready to communicate with you personally. Until then, they are so grateful for their dear family and friends who have walked along side of them during this journey.

Information regarding a Memorial Service in honor of Timothy will be posted soon.

~Karen

Our Angel Has His Wings

After 2 hours and 50 minutes, little Timothy James went peacefully from his Mommy's arms into the arms of Jesus.

Please continue to pray for the Currey family as we celebrate his life and mourn the loss of their precious Timothy.

Little Blessing

He's Here!! He's Here!!

We are so thrilled to announce the arrival of Timothy James Currey! He was born at 3:55 pm (after only two pushes!) weighing 4 lbs 12.9 oz. and measuring 16-1/2" long. He has light brown hair and blue eyes. What a joy it was to watch him take his first breath. He is a little fighter, working hard to continue breathing and enjoying each moment with his family. He has already had the privilege of meeting his very proud brothers and sister, along with Grandma & Grandpa Myers and Auntie Janelle.

At the moment he is cuddled up on his Mommy's chest - one of the most tender and precious moments you can imagine. It was so incredible watching him open his eyes as he heard his Daddy's voice too! Two separate times when Kevin bent down to kiss him and talk with him, little Timothy opened his eyes as if he were looking to see his Daddy.

Kevin and Jennifer have shown unimaginable strength and courage through this process - the kind of strength only the Lord could give them. We praise God for the indescribable gift of meeting Timothy.

Karen

Lunchtime Update

Jen just had her epidural, and things are progressing. Little slower then anticipated. Jen is doing well and is hanging in. I am so proud of her, her strength is definitely shining through.

Timothy seems to be holding up well. His heart rate is anywhere from 100/bpm to 140bpm. He has had some d-cell this morning, but he seems to be stabilizing for now.

When we have a chance, we will try to get an update posted. Thank you for all your prayers.

Kevin

Beginning of Induction

Kevin just called from the hospital. They have just started the pitocin to begin labor. It was a long night and I am heading off to the hospital right now. I should be able to post updates throughout the day, as they brought their laptop with them and have internet access. Please continue praying for the Currey family today.

Karen

Sleeplessness

3 hours until we leave...

I have spent a lot of time trying to sleep tonight. After going to bed at midnight, and tossing and turning most of the night I finally gave in and decided to come downstairs and eat that donut that has been calling my name (chocolate...what else??). I know that I have a long day a head of me and wish that I could sleep but I'm going to have to count on God to give me the strength to get through the day because sleep is evading me tonight...

Chuck E Cheese

We took the kids to Chuck E Cheeses for an evening of fun and food before we go to the hospital in the morning. When we pulled up they were so excited. We had a wonderful time playing games, enjoying rides and gathering tickets. We had pizza and cotton candy for dinner. We even had the chance to meet Chuck E Cheese and get a family picture.

Power in Prayer

We are getting very close to the end of our pregnancy. It is amazing that we have been able to keep Timothy with us this long. All pregnancy's must end, and I am excited and scared to tell you that we will be meeting Timothy within the next 6 days. We have scheduled an induction for July 28th, so unless Timothy decides to make an grand entrance earlier, we will be able to see him this coming Monday.

Physically we are ready. We have our bags packed, birth plan ready, and child care scheduled. I don't know if we are emotionally ready. I don't know if it is possible to be emotionally ready.

I know that there is power in prayer. If you feel led, please spend some time in prayer for Timothy this week.

I am concerned that Timothy might not make it until Monday. It would be so hard to have him pass just days before we are scheduled to have him.

It is one of my greatest desires to see Timothy while he is alive. I want to see him in Kevin's arms and have memories of our children holding and talking to him. Unfortunately the stress of labor is extremely difficult for these precious babies. Most of their little bodies can't endure and they are asleep when they are born.

A long time ago I started praying for Gods will...not mine. That is still my prayer, but I also have these desires to have some time with Timothy. Please pray that God will give Timothy strength and give us courage. Pray that our children will cope well during these next few difficult weeks and Kevin and I will continue to cling to each other.

A glorious day

A glorious day...

I have been thinking about those words frequently lately. "The day you meet your son will be here before you know it. It will be a glorious day."

I have taken comfort in these words not just because they were written to me, but because of who they were written by.

I have emailed several times with another T18 mom in the last couple of months. Erin is a wonderful mother that lost her son, Tyler, at 33 weeks. She has lived through every emotion that I have felt. She has experienced the same feelings of love for Tyler that I feel for Timothy and has known the same feelings of helplessness.

A glorious day...

Erin remembers the day she met Tyler as a glorious day. She was never able to feel his breath, hear his cry, or see him open his eyes, but it was a glorious day.

I can't say that I fully understand yet but I am able to take comfort in those words.

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Calm

I am 37 weeks and have been feeling calm for a little while now. Kevin frequently asks me how I'm doing. When I tell him that I'm doing alright, he always gives me that look. You know the look... the one that says "Are you really doing okay?"



I don't know why this sense of calmness has come over me. It might be because I'm feeling more prepared for any outcome. I decided it was time for me to give up trying to control the outcome and just accept Gods plan. I stopped doing internet research a little while ago and I think that has helped a lot. I feel ready to stop reading about other experiences and birth stories with T18 and just have our own experience.



This feeling of readiness might also be part of Gods ultimate plan for every pregnant woman. If you have ever been pregnant you know what I'm talking about. It's that moment when you feel like you can't continue the pregnancy for another day, then you look at the calender and realize that you have an entire month to go! It can be the little things that bother you the most. Like the ability (or rather the inability) to bend over... I find myself scooting around the house on my bum trying to pick up as many things as I can so I don't have to bend down so many times! You can't see your toes anymore and it is nearly impossible to tie your own shoes (thank goodness for flip flops!). But, there are also bigger things that begin to creep up on us. When you can't get comfortable in any position (I mean ANY position), stop being able to eat and sleep, and in my case, have a hard time driving because my tummy doesn't fit behind the wheel anymore. Of course it's also irritating that you can't seem to stop the frequent and urgent trips to the bathroom. The littlest chores become huge feats. Like taking the laundry upstairs or doing the dishes (because you can't reach the water coming out of the sink!) I could go on and on but I really should stop complaining...

For those of you that have never experienced the joyful event of pregnancy, don't let this deter you, just consider it your warning!

Summer Fun

Summer is finally here! It was beginning to feel like the rain and clouds would never go away but the sun has been out for about 2 weeks now. We have spent a lot of time enjoying the nice weather.


Last weekend we woke up on Sunday morning and checked the weather. It said it was going to be in the 90's. It was 8:00 in the morning and our house was already 80 degrees. We don't have air conditioning and quickly decided it would be perfect to go to Ocean Shores for the day. We packed up the car in about 45 minutes and hit the road. It is about a 2 1/2 hour drive and I can't even tell you how many times we heard "Are we there yet?". As we got closer the temperature began to drop and I quickly realized that I had forgotten to pack a very important thing...sweatshirts. We pulled up to the beach and the temperature was 58 degrees, cloudy and windy. A quick stop at the store to pick up sweatshirts then we were good to go. We spend the day playing in the sand, flying kites and enjoying the water.







The fun hasn't stopped. We have been enjoying a lot of water play this year. We turned our slide into a water slide and have had tons water fights with squirt guns and the hose. We have also spend time playing in Grandma and Grandpa's lake and taking rides in the paddle boat.













Life feels pretty normal around our house right now. We are trying hard to get some big project's done before Timothy is born. Today was fence day. Kevin spent the entire day cleaning and staining our fence. He is awesome. He worked all day in the hot sun only stopping twice. Once to eat lunch and once to eat dinner. He was done just in time to tell the kids goodnight. I am always amazed at his persistence.

God's timing and prepairation

During these last few months I have had several conversations with friends and family about how God has spent so much time preparing me for our special child.



I would like to share this story with everyone.



It begins 14 years ago before I became a nurse. I began working at PICC (Pediatric Interim Care Center) with drug addicted infants. I learned how to care for babies that are in pain and have some very special needs. I loved helping these babies, and after I received my nursing license I chose to follow in this field by getting job at Mary Bridge Children's Hospital. Working at the hospital was a wonderful and emotional time in my life. I loved and bonded with some very sick children. These children were affected by many different problems. Some with cancer, cystic fibrosis, biliary atresia, as well as numerous other medical problems. I gained medical knowledge about how to care for children with long term illnesses, and as I was caring for these special kids, I watched and learned a lot about love and devotion from their families.


After working at "The Bridge" for nearly 3 years I went to the the funeral for a very special little girl, Grace. She was 4 years old and died after struggling with leukemia for about a year and a half. I was working the first day she was admitted and diagnosed, and I was there the day she died. She made a huge impact on my life and after she died I decided that I needed a change of pace.


I began my current job in OB/GYN. I love working with pregnant women. I love their joy when they get their first baby picture, hear the babies heart beat, and find out the gender. However, I quickly found out that not all pregnancy's have happy endings. I saw a different side of pregnancy. A side filled with reoccurring miscarriage, prenatal diagnosis, preterm delivery, and even infant loss. I walked with my patients through some very dark days.


Now that I look back I can see why God placed all of these events in my life. He was slowly preparing me.

God knew what I needed in my life right now. He gave me 3 busy little children to keep me on my toes and keep me living. He blessed me with a wonderful husband that loves me dearly. He put friends and family in our lives to support us. He gave me joy, laughter, and a messy house that needs constant attention.

Before Kevin and I choose to conceive Timothy, I believe that God spoke directly to my heart. I can only describe that feeling by telling you about a conversation I had with a friend.


About 4-6 weeks before we conceived I was talking to a friend about my fears of having another child. I told her that I believed I was going to have a child that was going to die. A child that has something like Downs Syndrome but fatal. We agreed that was an odd fear but Kevin and I should talk, pray, and follow Gods leading. Kevin was also having similar fears, but we both felt lead to have Timothy.


Some of you might wonder why we chose to have another child after such a real fear was placed on our hearts. I can honestly tell you that I wonder the same thing at times. I know that I love Timothy. I don't know how long he will be with us or who will be impacted by his life but I do know his life will be blessed with love.

A prayer for Timothy

Lord, you have blessed us
We know this is so
But the pain runs so deep
It's hard letting him go

He's so tiny, so precious
A blessing for sure
Wishing for a miracle
God's perfect cure

Instead we'll be thankful
For each tiny kick
For each special ultrasound
The clock's slow tick

With our eyes to the skies
We'll most certainly try
To give Timothy to God
Tender tears we will cry

Lord, please be with us
Comfort our soul
In our hearts is left
A special hole

We ask that you fill it
With something so grand
Only you have the power
With your compassionate hand

Please cradle our baby
Like only you can
Take care of Timothy
Till we can hold him again

Written in Love by,

Denise Earnhardt