Monday, July 14, 2008

Calm

I am 37 weeks and have been feeling calm for a little while now. Kevin frequently asks me how I'm doing. When I tell him that I'm doing alright, he always gives me that look. You know the look... the one that says "Are you really doing okay?"



I don't know why this sense of calmness has come over me. It might be because I'm feeling more prepared for any outcome. I decided it was time for me to give up trying to control the outcome and just accept Gods plan. I stopped doing internet research a little while ago and I think that has helped a lot. I feel ready to stop reading about other experiences and birth stories with T18 and just have our own experience.



This feeling of readiness might also be part of Gods ultimate plan for every pregnant woman. If you have ever been pregnant you know what I'm talking about. It's that moment when you feel like you can't continue the pregnancy for another day, then you look at the calender and realize that you have an entire month to go! It can be the little things that bother you the most. Like the ability (or rather the inability) to bend over... I find myself scooting around the house on my bum trying to pick up as many things as I can so I don't have to bend down so many times! You can't see your toes anymore and it is nearly impossible to tie your own shoes (thank goodness for flip flops!). But, there are also bigger things that begin to creep up on us. When you can't get comfortable in any position (I mean ANY position), stop being able to eat and sleep, and in my case, have a hard time driving because my tummy doesn't fit behind the wheel anymore. Of course it's also irritating that you can't seem to stop the frequent and urgent trips to the bathroom. The littlest chores become huge feats. Like taking the laundry upstairs or doing the dishes (because you can't reach the water coming out of the sink!) I could go on and on but I really should stop complaining...

For those of you that have never experienced the joyful event of pregnancy, don't let this deter you, just consider it your warning!

7 comments:

The Finnestad Family said...

I'm laughing outloud! We need to get you some arm extenders...or better yet, have your kids do all the laundry and dishes for you :)

Keri said...

Jen, I'm so glad that you are feeling that peace right now. Your entry was so funny...a glimpse of what I get to look forward to. That picture of you scooting on the floor picking up toys keeps me smiling. Thanks for sharing!

The Earnhardt Family said...

I like Karen's idea of arm extenders! Maybe you should have Kevin concoct up some fancy helper tool for you - guys are good at that ;-D It would be a riot just seeing what he comes up with!

Ahhh, a feeling of peace, that's amazing, and very God! I will continue praying for you, that you'll be able to stay in that place of peace, or keep finding your way back to it at least.

How are you doing with the heat? I remember you saying that you weren't looking forward to being pregnant in the summer :-)

Oh yeah, and I'll have you know that Jacob wants his nails done now... "I want pretty nails too!"

kimberly_munson said...

So good to hear you are doing well. I will be praying for you and the family in this last month. Praying that the peace will continue to the end.

The Wagner's said...

You crack me up! I love the visual of you on your bottom picking up the house! You call me anytime if you need help with any of that stuff, I'll come on over! I'm really happy that you've gotten some peace, though- what an answer to prayer for you.

mom said...

You are so funny, I can also see you scooting around on your bum. What a picture. I am so glad the Lord has given you a calmness during these last few weeks. Your dad and I will continue to pray. Love mom

Erin said...

Jen,
I am glad to hear you have some peace. It is in these last few weeks that fear can creep up, but the Lord has blessed you with peace.
I pray for the safe arrival of Timothy as the day nears. It will be such a glorious day.